Another year has passed, and I’m turning 20 in 2hours’ time.

Not too looking forward to, I guess.

 

A few reasons:

First, it’s a Monday, and I’m working on my birthday.

Second, there’s no point staying at home with family, as my brother is having his A levels.

Third, my dad has to work, my mum will be busy with her usual routine of household chores and my sister is going for BBQ session at her friend’s place.

Kinda sad, I like birthdays. But not this way.

 

 

This year, I have passed a year, without any achievements, without any dreams.

I dare not to hold on to any dreams anymore, including media.

I feel like I have been slapped awake, perhaps media is not suitable for me.

Even so, I’m in a dilemma for so long, I’m still at the same spot.

But I’m still lost, not knowing where to go.

 

 

Without realising, I have been working in DiD for 6months already, since May.

Even though, I’m of a higher position now, I feel no excitement.

After internship, I have learnt a lot.

But going back to the same place, I cannot achieve anything anymore.

DiD is too sheltered.

And I can’t learn.

Cos I’m too familiar with the work.

It’s so much like a routine now, I feel as though I’m useless.

My contract is ending end of December.

So, should I renew my contract for another 6 months?

 

 

Uni application is opening in Jan next year.

Should I go apply?

What should I apply?

I have seen the cut-off points for this year, and realised my grades are not good enough to go in.

For both Chinese and Communication Studies.

So, should I apply for uni again?

 

 

20 years old, more responsibilities, more expectations and more problems.

I don’t wish to grow up.

 

 

But still,

Happy Birthday to me and to other November babies!